CRAZY TIMES! Gah!

So as you have noticed its been a while since I have posted on this blog! My life got crazy busy! I don't even remember the last time I posted! It must have been summertime because I remember something about tripping over box fans!

Let's see. My oldest daughter has a mood disorder so I have been trying different behavior programs to get her back on track to being my lovable little girl. But as luck would have it that lovable little girl disappeared for three weeks because her favorite teacher had to take medical leave to have her tonsils taken out and recuperate. Thankfully she came back and my lovable daughter came back too! Apparently she does not do well with change!

My middle daughter has been having trouble with her ears. She had a set of tubes put in August of 2011 (her second set) and last week, six months later, had to have those tubes replaced again! Her left ear is making us worry but we still have hope!

My youngest daughter, who I call the devil reincarnated, is an adrenaline junkie. She climbs higher than any other kid her age would. She is fearless and sassy! She definitely makes life interesting!

As for me I have noticed some change in my vision, a little decrease of the side vision and it worries me. I take each day at a time. I stare at each of my daughters to memorize their faces and commit to memory funny stories so I will never forget. I tell them to be strong and teach them to be independent. I love them with every fiber of my being and will probably cry for days the morning I wake up and can no longer see. But as I teach my daughters to be strong and independent I am working on this myself. I am there but we can always be stronger and independent!

The other day I told a friend I hadn't seen the stars in so long and missed them. I can only see the really bright stars which are really rare for me. Being night blind I don't go outside much to really look anymore. She surprised me with pictures of stars a few days later and I cried! It meant so much to me that she took the time to go out and take pictures of the stars for me to see.  I always say never take anything for granted but I definitely took for granted seeing stars! Then I realize losing my eyesight is part of my journey. If I tell my stories (and I always have a ton!) can show other people what I am going through and maybe give them hope then I shall share it! And this I promise to try to blog more! lol.

For the love of my sanity!

Okay, so the weather is getting warmer out and people are bringing out the fans before turning on the AC. I have Usher's which mean I can't see the little box fans that  that are sitting in the doorways and usually trip over them. I usually tend to remember that once I trip over a fan that there is one there but at home my life is chaotic. Don't get me wrong because I love my chaotic life.... 3 little girls who love to chase each other and scream.... what's not to love about it. So when I am trying to deal with those girls I tend to forget where those fans are and trip over them. It usually stops my kids right away because they are concerned with me but then I have to let them know that I am okay. This tripping over fans and running into other things usually leaves to multicolored bruises and scrapes and unsightly burns while I am trying to craft. I was thinking about starting a picture blog of all my bruises the other day, but I decided that my posting them on Facebook is enough! So when dealing with a Blind person, even a legally blind person, please do not invite them to your house and then move the furniture around after they leave! You will only contribute to more bruises! Okay, so that was a little joke, just tell us if there is anything that we might trip over and please have good lighting. It usually takes a legally blind person's eyes five minutes to adjust from outdoor lighting to indoor lighting and we don't see well in dimly lighted places. That is why we have hard times at bars and restaurants. Be kind, offer your elbow. All you have to do is walk. We are about a step behind you and if you come up to a tight space put the arm behind you and we will go directly behind you. When you need to do something that does not involve us, find a blank piece of wall  and drop off us there.... just let us know what you are doing and that you will be right back. Let us know if there are any stairs or doors and if there is a place to sit. Most of it is common sense and if you have any questions don't be afraid to ask.

EPIC FAIL

So I completely bombed that New Year's Resolution! My goal was to write in the blog every week so uhm yeah....epic fail! That's all right because I have a lot on my plate. I am a full-time mom who is also attending the University of Phoenix online. Yes, this legally blind and hearing impaired gal (ugh I hate that term!) is getting her Bachelor's degree in Health Care Administration. I am still not sure what I want to be when I grow up but I know that I want to work in the health care field. Since I can't be a nurse for the obvious reasons I thought I would work in the office. Only time will tell.

Not much has really happened since I last posted here in February, but I wish Mother Nature would get out of her funk and cooperate. These weather changes are hard on the eyes! Other than that I am hoping to get new hearing aids... Yup, going from analog to digital baby! I can't wait so as soon as I get them I will be posting what I think and how excited I am for these new changes in my life! No real moral to today's post so I guess this is a warning for the next post.... be prepared!

Weather Changes

Okay, so I live in Michigan where the weather is not really that predictable. We can have 70 degree weather one day and have it snowing the next. This can get frustrating for someone who has Usher Syndrome. On overcast days we can go without sunglasses and on bright snowy days we need those sunglasses. On snowy days it is a little difficult to use a cane when there is snow on the ground and no one has shoveled. We had a wind advisory the other day... the wind was gusting 40-50 miles per hour, also not exactly good day to use a cane. Man, I think I need to move to a more friendly blind spot.... overcast warm days with slight breeze and no snow.... hmmm... sounds like heaven to me, but the girl in me craves the sun so I guess I can rock the sunglasses!

My next adventure is to research somewhat local places to take my daughters on a mini vacation. I am kind of interested in Great Wolf Lodge, but like I said I am going to research some.

Independence

First of all I want to apologize for not writing a post last week! I was attempting to write every Friday for this year. I remembered on Saturday night that I had not made a post and then forgot to do it anyways! So this post is for this and last week!

So independence. I think everyone takes their individual independence for granted. I know I did. I did everything I possibly could on my own and to the best of my ability. Since being diagnosed legally blind a year ago on February 4th I gave up my driver's license and learn how to use a cane. (Although I don't use the cane as much as I should). I have been using assistive technology such as a vibrating alarm clock (not as fun as it sounds!), a abnormally loud doorbell, a sensor in my youngest daughter's room that sets off my vibrating clock to wake me up, and trying to learn braille. These are all tools that will help make me more independent, but life would be so much easier if I didn't have to use them, and especially if I didn't have this disability.

I have had to teach my children how to guide me and how to help me when I need them. They are amazing and I could not be more proud of my little girls! I am hoping that by living through the difficulties that they have seen me go through that they grow into compassionate young women who can make a difference!

Although blindness and deafness have been around since the dawn of time technology has only been advancing significantly for these two disabilities in the last twenty years. I am always hearing about new technology and cannot wait until they become available to everyone. Did you hear about the technology Ford has been attempting to allow blind people to drive cars? They had a blind man test drive a car around Daytona International Speedway a few weeks ago to show the world that they are getting closer and closer. I, for one, would love to have that kind of independence again! So, I guess what I am trying to say is live life to its fullest but be careful because you never know if you could possibly lose a little piece of independence.

New Facebook page

As most of you know I have Usher Syndrome. This is two separate genetic disorders combined to make one disability. My eye condition alone is called Retinitis Pigmentosa and my hearing loss is categorized as moderate to severe. With the help of hearing aids I can hear almost everything that a normal person hears, As for my eyes, I have tunnel vision. With my glasses I have near perfect vision except for the fact I have no peripheral vision.

The other day I got a message on my Facebook page about a new group forming and thought I would share it with you folks so that you could check it out. It is called "The Low Vision Bureau: Low Vision Americans' Reviews of Restaurants." This is a page where people with RP go to write a review of a restaurant they visited. Most people don't think about how a restaurant can affect a blind person. Yesterday, I went to Applebee's restaurant and the lighting was so dim I could barely see. Thankfully all of the windows were open so that I could see what I was eating!

Also, listed in this page is a photo album of what people with certain eye conditions see. I thought this was really interesting and wanted to share that link with you as well so you can get an idea of what I see.
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/photo.php?fbid=188848417810376&set=a.188848397810378.50901.181609248534293

Check it out if you have time. I think you will be surprised.

Also, I just wanted to say if you ever have any questions please feel free to leave a comment and I will try to give the best possible answer!

What to do?

This weekend the windchills have slipped into the negatives... brrr! So I am staying inside as much as possible with the exception of going to my mom's house so that she can help make make 8 ragdolls for Gabi's girl scout troop members. How can I do crafts? Well, I am legally blind, not completely blind. Basically, I have tunnel vision. This means I cannot see people stand next to me or little children standing directly in front of me. With my glasses I have perfect vision. What a cruel irony huh? But at least I can see my children's beautiful faces, the beauty of nature, read my beloved books, and do my crafts.

My oldest asked me the other day "Mommy, why did you have to be blind?" How do you answer that question? So I thought for a minute and replied "I don't know baby, but maybe it is supposed to make you grateful for the things you have and make you feel compassionate for others who don't have what you have." She thought for a minute and said "I am friends with the autistic kids in my class when other people ignore them." I couldn't say a word but hugged her silently then pulled away, looked into her eyes and said "I am very proud of you." Of course she blushed, but it was true. My nine year old little girl is growing up so fast!